19 08 2007

I was ‘sweeping’ my inbox when I came upon my buzzie’s email. Hay butch, you really have a way of making me smile… Maybe it’s because of your piñot. Hehe.

Thanks for the friendship, bastos as it is.

This came at a time when the world was at a standstill.. or so i wished.

—–Original Message—–
From: butch [mailto:butch@**********.com]
Sent: Tuesday, April 06, 2004 3:01 PM
To: Moi
Subject: Re: pssst….

so? is he here? do you have to leave because of that? do you have to revolve your schedule, your time, your feelings and all that mushy syet around him? do you have to go on depressed mode because the “love of your life,” the “light of your world” has dimmed and there’s nothing you can do? is that why wa na’y point to stay here? is that why you’re closing your eyes to the rest of the world? because you’re wallowing in despair and self-pity?!

pagka shallow.

you have a life, for crying out loud! you have us; you have mama janice, alvin, mars, barsy the super-mutated autistic boy; you have laedee, joe the slayer, louie my antithesis (and hopefully not my soul mate); you have your boardmates; you have me and joyce!

you have so much to do and so little time. stop wasting your time diha and start living your life the way you want it (read: single, enjoyable and fun — don’t join any charismatic group or any other group of that nature. they’ll only make you more depressed.).

come on! God made the world in six days and rested on the seventh day (i’m not sure where i’m going with this, so hang on…) you made beautiful music with tiger. now the music is gone and all the notes have gone flat. so what do you do? shut yourself in your room and stop making beautiful music? no. God didn’t stop creating after Adam. He made Eve. After tiger, there’s no other way except up. better things. more melodic music. more exciting and enjoyable things to look forward to.

sakto man sila. you should always look back to your roots to see how far you’ve come. but there is a point where if you keep looking back, you’re not going forward anymore (are we still on the same page….? nagkagubot na akong mga analogies….) and that is not good.

sorry ni-burst ko like this. your friendship is treasured a lot in this part of the world. going off the deep end won’t help anyone. unless you want to erase out memory of you. sorry……




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