About the Sorceress

i am life’s greatest paradox ever.

i am a non-conformist but i am a sucker for traditions.

i am a liberal with a conservative heart.

i am an advocate of equality but in time, i will submit to and be enslaved by the right king—or queen?

i am a fusion of the good, the bad and the ugly.

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I can curse in more than 5 dialects and 5 languages.

I smoke.

I used to drink a lot.

I used to sleep around a lot too.

In my 29 summers, I can say I’ve been there, I’ve done that, I’ve been had… I’ve had.

I am the epitome of a woman who has lived her life to the fullest… well, almost. Coz I hate taking physical risks.

I look like I’m some toughie, like the bitch who can drive your emotions to the edge and make you cry bucketsful of tears.

YET…

I also cry at the slightest provocation… like sad movies and sappy love songs and heartwarming stories and pictures.

I am a closet romantic.

I detest damsels in distress. I am a woman in a rusty armor. Thing is, I spend unthinkable hours devouring romance novels and dream that someday my prince (or princess, doh!) will come and that we’ll live happily ever after. God! I wish for happy endings.

I am full of contradictions. But then again, so is life.

because she refuses to sleep

Hot-Headed Moi

I must admit, I can be downright brutal to people who, in my opinion, deserve some serious tongue-lashing.  I’d rather be called a bitch than a sweet, nice lady who will only to stab you from behind.   If I don’t like you, I don’t like you.  If I made a mistake at judging you based on first impressions, I apologize.  I’m just like that.  Straightforward, and sometimes, disrespecting. 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not belligerent.  I don’t growl at people for merely talking to me or for approaching me for anything at all.  Diplomacy is something that runs in my veins.  But when I feel like I am being taken advantage of, I back down a little and show my fangs.  If that don’t get to you, I stare down—watch Grey’s Anatomy.  Dr. Bailey taught Callie how to stare people down.  Hehehe. —and hope against hope that you do what’s best for you and back off.  Not the ZTE deal back off thing but the real deal.   I can be super patient and tolerant but I don’t like reaching a point where I boil.  I have undergone anger management on my own.  Because I have a long history of throwing and breaking things—NOT good.  I threw a mug at someone in Kalayaan, that dorm for freshies in UP, over something that I held in for so long.  The mug was beyond repair and so was the friendship that I had with that girl.  It landed by the way, a few inches behind where she used to stand barely a few seconds before it shattered.  She could have been hit right in her face.  Good for her.  Good for me.  I don’t know what I would have done if I broke someone’s face over something that I could have told her right to her face a long time ago anyway.  Partly my fault. 

So since then, I have made it a point to vent out every time I feel bad or happy about something.  My sister told me I have the makings of a psychotic so I don’t want to go crazy over small stuff.  Hehehe.  But seriously, I try my darnedest never to reach the physical part.  So now, when I am pissed off, I am really pissed off.  I get upset over little things and if you’re around me, you’ll think that it’s something so earthshaking but it’s just the way that the utensils are washed or the way the furniture is arranged.  My day gets ruined over small things.  So I either wash the utensils again myself or rearrange the furniture until everything looks right.  I stomp and I sulk but that’s about it, really.  But once I have vented out, I feel better, if not totally ok.  I won’t say I’m ok when I am not.  Thing is, I don’t want to go back to the same issues over and over again.  In relationships—and I mean this in general—you fight over issues that you never talk about when you’re all cooled down.  You just make up as if nothing happened.  Somebody apologizes for the sake of saying sorry and things go back to normal.  So when circumstances trigger a sensitive issue, you get back to fighting even if it’s been fought over over and over again for over a decade.  I don’t like that.  It burns bridges and it severs ties.  

I’m no longer confrontational.  So when something bothers me, I talk it out.  I am not one to say, hey, did you say this or that.  I just tell whoever is concerned that, hey, I don’t like being told this and that.  I don’t ask.  I just tell whoever is concerned that I am not pleased.  It’s up to her or him if he/she wants to test my patience.  I count in threes.  After that, I just go.  If it’s worth my time, I show anger.  If it’s important to me, I show unbridled wrath.  If it doesn’t matter, I just leave. 

I’m not really sure what my point is.  I just wanted to talk about myself for now.  LOL.  So?  Shoot me!

17 responses

19 12 2007
Geisha

interesting profile.. i sooo love it!

thanks for visiting my repository:)

at dahil dyan, ilalagay ko ang iyong pangalan sa aking blogroll…

ciao!

19 12 2007
iamsorceress

thanks dahling. i’m doing the same. see you ’round.

28 12 2007
bomberoking

“I must admit, I can be downright brutal to people who, in my opinion, deserve some serious tongue-lashing. I’d rather be called a bitch than a sweet, nice lady who will only to stab you from behind.” – THE SORCERESS

I LOVE THAT ABOUT YOU..!
KEEP IT UP..!
IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE HATED FOR WHO YOU ARE, RATHER THAN BE LOVED FOR SOMEONE WHO YOU’RE NOT..!
-BOMBERO KING

28 12 2007
iamsorceress

thank you. i am humbled by your visit. salamat po. welcome to my lonely garret. feeling ko naman bahay ko no. pero well, kunyari na lang housemates nga tayo minus the script ng PBB. LOL. salamat sa pagbisita.

3 01 2008
bomberoking

i have linked you.

You’re in my roll now. Love your blog! I’ll visit again soon. Nabaliw ako sa latest post mo! Pahiram ng magic jacket ha! 😀

18 02 2008
ladyracer

a very cool lady indeed! 🙂

why, thank you girl! drive safe, aight?

29 02 2008
bibomedia

🙂

24 03 2008
Hero

I admire your courage….. wondering if you or we can work on something about the Philippine situation.
Some sort of enlightenment for the people to progress.
Targeting the great leader with power to do something about the situation in the philippines and have a good proper planning for development. Ima just talking about love and concern about the situation and for the people especially the oppress.

Let me know if you’re interested and tell if there’s any people out there who
have same wave lenght. Thanks for reading my message …hoping that sensible enough to think about.

22 06 2008
rex

that was a mouthful!!!

17 08 2008
Allarn Farkin Restauro

So this is where pour all your farkin’ shit about T***n? hehehe Joke! Wazzup Ged, just dropping a big HELLO to a GOOD friend like you.

Oh yes, fark you too!

PS: fark you again! hahahaha

Weeeehehehehe. Bungot in love! Is the man. Hehehe. Fark you! —iamsorceress

21 09 2008
Rhea Campbell

You and I are too much alike. I knew I liked you for a reason 🙂

Good to know. 🙂 Thank you! Thanks for dropping by. —iamsorceress

8 01 2009
sh u namnabulik_apatot

looking for the so called blog about the Pangadamans kaya ako
napadako dito …
and read some paragraph of your writings on it….
and jump into your page “about the sorceress”, this page is more interesting than those Pangandamans..

8 01 2009
bulik_apatot

Hi, napadako ako dito just looking for those blog and writings about the Pangandamans. I read shortly some paragraph of your writings on it and jumps into this page whick is more interesting (“about the sorceress”) than those politicians…

7 02 2009
ric romano

Hi there iamsorceress.ric here.drop by to say hello.

6 10 2009
dazednotconfused

i should’ve read this a long time ago! 😉 i must say, you are beautiful… simply marvelous!

16 01 2011
julesledesma

omg its as if im reading me amplify me with dictat. Gad its freaky eerie whilst ellliciting very. . Egad this is quite unsettling. Ditto on the, no way_ e tu brute- id rather be staring eyetoeye if and when I gut my nemesis. This is so Jung. holy sh^^. muchobliged_ you Get It. Holy Gee. Esse QUAM videri. To Be rather than to seem.

*chuckle*
Thanks for the visit. —iamsorceress

25 05 2011
hrbk2004

This is the first time I’ve read your blogged. Came upon it when I was looking for Paulo Coelho’s “Closing Cycles” and I’ve stayed and read several of your pages. I’m hooked.
You’re voicing out so much that I don’t say because I was brought up to “be nice”. I admire your courage to stand up and not be afraid of who you are.
Love reading your soul~*

Thank you for the kind words and the visit. Hope you’re doing great. —iamsorceress

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